The merry go round of life,
is both frustrsting and wonderful.
You're so close to me ,each day.
No more than a meter at times!
Yet as many have said before,
you're so far away.


Why can't ypu see me?
As I jump and wave my hands.
aren't the two of us meant to be?
Or was that just my plan?

My hand reaches out to you,
but you turn giving a serene smile,
you look into my eyes,lovingly,
and then you let go,and drift off into your fantasy world.

No! I cry! only to hear strangled voice die off and writher away.
You take the light with you and I am left in the dark,to contemplate,and hope.
You may have noticed with me.
I'm always to afraid,too caught up with my own ego to ask you that magical question.
You give the right signs,but alas its too contradicting,too confusing for me to grasp with my simple mind.

You are like a utopian rose,constantly morphing from a sweet ,innocent beauty,
into a sinisterly random girl.I wanna sincerely thank you,
for all the times you took me in under your wings
and watering my withering flowerbed of hope.

Your actions are sincere and true,
helping me in all I do.
yet why do I feel despair?
Is it true what they declare?
Are we meant to be a pair?

Questions ,questions,thats all I ask,
I'm a hypocrite,a masquerader .
I hide behind this mask,
because I'm afraid you'll see the real me and laugh.
I hide behind the keyboard,because I'm afraid to look up to see you.
I'm ashamed of myself for a reason,I've yet to find out.
I was hoping that you would help bring ME out.

Now that last question is in the open,plain to see,
is it you? or is it me?
Has your pure heart been polluted indefinitely?
Or have my eyes been sheilded ,making me too blind to see?

The merry go round of life,I hope will keep spinning indefinitely.
Along the way,perhaps we'll meet ?But for now,I'll just have to keep praying,
in my sleep.




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The merry go round of life is actually the opening piano/ochestra piece from Howl's Moving Castle.I listen to it often nowadaes,and I was inspired by its simple,yet moving tune to write this piece of poetry ,which is very relevant to my life now.To me it portrays a wondering person engulfed in both sadness and tears and there is a certain sense of longing hidden in the background.Later on in the song,however,the pace picks up slightly moving into a more pacy and finally coming back to the soft,gentle tune that the song began with . Its a beautiful piece,and I rccomend it to piano lovers and clasical music lovers.